Ruined 


What did I do?

Where did I go wrong?

To deserve the agony of this slow burn

 

I know I can’t be the only one

Hurting this way

I can’t be the only one bounded by misery

Struggling for the freedom

For the carelessness

I once had as a young child

 

Is there anyone that can comprehend,

Such lonesome,

Such frigidness

Are you out there?

 

People always say,

“It will be okay”

And still I am stuck

Pleading and screaming

No more!

 

When will that be over?

When will I find the warm days I long for?

The days where I slow danced with the breeze

The days before you ruined my normalcy

The days before you murdered my happiness,

My innocence

 

Where are those naive days before I met life?

I miss them

 

-Tootsie