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  • Tootsie 6:22 am on July 5, 2010 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: Free,   


    I started this new journey to

    Find my way back

    Only to be left feeling alone

    On this straight narrow track

    There is so much hope

    If I keep walking with strength

    Up this steep slope

    Yet my friends flee

    They ridicule me

    And battle me to reach a defeat

    One day I will reach my destination

    And there He will be

    The Lord of creation

    With His arms wide open unto me

    Engulfing me in His light

    Finally free

    • sarairivera 9:02 pm on July 14, 2010 Permalink | Reply


      and could you really call those who flee – friends? maybe they never were

    • Raquel 9:18 pm on October 25, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      I soo agree with sarai!.

  • Tootsie 6:18 am on July 5, 2010 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , , , Revisiting the Past,   

    Revisiting the Past 

    The red paint on the wall haunts me

    I make my way up the steep steps

    Once I make it to the top

    I stand for a while and compose myself

    Slowly I walk to the rusted door

    It takes a few jerks but it opens

    The apartment is well lit

    And yet it drowns me in its darkness

    I go directly into my childhood bedroom

    Three windows are in the room

    But still it feels enclosed

    Like a torture chamber

    I sit on the floor

    And place my hands by my side

    The coldness of the room makes me shiver

    You are no longer here

    To physically taunt me

    But unfortunately mentally you have power

    While I continue to sit here

    I begin to feel like a nine year old again




    And damaged

    You have conveniently left

    Behind the monster here

    So easily- effortlessly

    While I am forever stuck

    With this child

    A child ruined


    And left to die within herself

    Over and over again

    • sarairivera 9:01 pm on July 14, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      So sad. I love how you express yourself.

      How great that God not only heals but offers us so much more!

    • Raquel 9:25 pm on October 25, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      I really love this one. every word of it is true. unfortanetly there are things that have happened that even as we say we are over it and im healed we lie. we lie to others as we do to ourselves. we arent healed. we never are. once that pain is inside our hearts its there where it will forever stay. we might put on a mask , smile and say im ok. but the walls inside us are shattering. killing us slowly. making us want nothing but to end that crucial pain that has done nothing but haunt us and hurt us.

      • Tootsie 7:46 am on November 23, 2010 Permalink | Reply

        We forgive, but never forget. To forget would be foolish.

  • Tootsie 6:11 am on July 5, 2010 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , I'm sorry to say, , ,   

    I’m sorry to say 

    I’m sorry to say

    But I wish your father was dead

    I wish you were a bastard

    And would never mention his name

    Only if you knew

    The things he’s done

    The things he did

    And the things he will do

    Just then maybe you wouldn’t

    Turn into him

    Or look for his companionship

    I wish your father was dead

    I wish you were a bastard

    That would never mention his name

    I’m sorry to say

  • Tootsie 5:52 am on July 5, 2010 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: damaged, ,   


    I sat on the front steps of my porch

    The street was silent as it ever could be

    Colors flew down the street,

    Snakes hissed at pretty girls

    My Dad yelled out the window,

    “Come upstairs!”

    I can’t seem to move,

    I was hypnotized by all the colors

    The way it all seem to blend together

    A mixture of red, black, white and even brown

    From the pollution

    This is my world

    My damaged kaleidoscope

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