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Tell me, Love
Does anyone really know how to love?
Is love an action or an emotion?
Or is it both?
Isn’t love God
If love is God
Then love is perfect
Love is forgiving
Love does it all
So how can I love
When I’m not perfect
I’m so far off perfect
When I’m not so forgiving
At times revengeful
When some days I
Can’t do nothing at all
So tell me love, what am I suppose to do?
-Tootsie
I keep myself busy
Running away from the reality
Of all this pain
Pain that could easily be washed away
By calling on your Name
By letting You take over
So You can put things in place
I just seem to be making a
Bigger mess of it all
Attempt after attempt
Only to fall
Yet again
-Tootsie
What is it that stops us then? Is it our pride. Once again great little short poem.
I feel alone
In this cold world
Holding on to this hurt
That I have to bear on my own
I spend my days
Listening to everyone’s problems
Helping out
Giving advice
Forgiving over and over
When is it going to be my turn?
When are you going to do that for me?
When are you going to all realize
I’m angry
I’m hurt
My soul is tired
I fight everyday
To prove everyone wrong
Still, I get no satisfaction
When I do
I’m taken advantage of
Misunderstood
But no one listens
No one listens to my screams
My plea for an embrace
To you all- I’m just a burden
A nice girl turned mean
In reality I’m dying inside
Broken in every kind of way
No longer caring what you think
Left here
In shambles
Crying
Crying out to the only one
Who hears me,
God.
-Tootsie
Very beautifully, heartbreaking as usual. I love this. So very real.
This is why the ONLY one who deserves our complete all is God. He’s the only one who is truly faithful and stays by ourside regardless of what happens.
I’m sorry you feel this way. I pray God will continue to always help you and that He will glorify Himself in your life in an amazing way!
I love you lots!
Thanks, Snuggs
I identify with this one a great deal as well. You have no idea how much. I’m pretty angry at god at the moment, so I haven’t been turning to him, but the rest of what you said is right on the money for me.
You should pray and hand that anger to Him, He will know what to do with it 
Thank you for the comments, I really appreciate it.
I get so lost
In this person I don’t want to be
Hoping to unlock any kind of happiness
Unlocking only all the bad memories
Of the heartache I repressed long ago
Making fresh all my healed wounds
Unleashing all the anger within
I have only ruined me
I kneel before You
Humbled
I can no longer keep running
From this vacancy
With this yearning to be filled
I ask that You fix
This desolate place
That has become my heart
Heal my tainted eyes
That refuses to see the good
In anything
Clear my mind of this useless clutter
And fill it with visions of You
Save me from Me
Save me from the nothing that I’m holding on to
-Tootsie
Amen!! He hears you. He knows what you need before you even asked Him. Always know that Hes in control. Hes going to glorify Himself in your life in a great way!
How did I get stuck in this place again-
Desperately looking for a way out?
I led myself here
To then figure out
I forgot my way back
I run in circles
Only to be left in a daze
Just to end up in the same place
Same pain
Same darkness
The one that wraps itself all around me
Until I can no longer breathe
Or function
But you always come on time
Your love- Your light
Makes the darkness no longer surround me
You never leave
You wait for me to call out Your name
Even if I can’t mutter the words
You hear my heart cry out
And there You are
To save me
To give me love
To shower me in your unexplainable mercy
Unexplainable warmth
Unexplainable light
This is where I’d rather be
Lost in the unexplainable
In all that is You
-Tootsie
Mid afternoon
People rushing through Park St.
Completely oblivious to the beauty around them
The crystal clear sky
With a few strokes of clouds
The leaves that are starting to sprout out
Birds flying- swiftly moving with the breeze
They notice none of this
Yet the men do not fail to notice
The young girls who are lost
And do not know the danger of no values
Or the women who are too preoccupied
With their fresh curls from the salon
To notice anything
Consuming themselves and their time
With superficial beauty
When the true beauty of creation
Surrounds their every being
-Tootsie
Wow. Very beautifully expressed! So very true!
I tried emailing you….
I love you!
yeah. I don’t have that email no more
The sadness I escaped
Is trying to hold me captive again
It feeds off my tears
And takes joy in my fears
Slowly evaporating my hope
Vanishing it before my eyes
How can I run from something
I was comfortable in for years?
How can I stand
When it is easier to stay down?
God, are you still there?
Will you free me
From these chains
I locked around my own heart?
Or will I be imprisoned
And tortured
By these self-inflicted wounds?
-Tootsie
I love you, My child
I express my love for you everyday
When the rays of light slightly
Warm your face
When the breeze gently caresses your body
When the leaves on the trees sway side to side
Dancing for you
Yet you don’t notice these things
Everything I have made in this world
I have made it for you
With you in mind
You are so special to Me
My creation
You cry because you say
You are not perfect
Yet you were perfectly created
By My Hands
Look around you
And you will find Me
Seek Me
And you will know
All the ways I love you
This is beautiful.
I was so built up with anger
Unable to do anything about it
Except cry
And shout Your Name
I shouted out
Over and over
Left exhausted
Finally I close my eyes
To see You
Holding me
Brushing my hair back
Comforting me
You came in my time of need
Wiped away my tears
And rid me of that
Unbearable anger
That was consuming me
Destroying every ounce of strength
But there You were
When I called You
There You were…
Again
God,
Help me. Take away anything
That is holding me back from you
Help me change
Help me get lost in You
I’m tired of feeling empty
So eerily vacant
Only You can make it better
You can heal my heart
And rest my fears about the future
Without You
I’m lost
Looking for a purpose
When my main purpose
Has always been to love You
blog designer, 
raquel are discussing. 
Rachel is discussing. 
Francis is discussing. 
raquel 11:08 pm on October 25, 2010 Permalink |
Well love is god. but I believe god gave us feelings to feel for him and others what he feels for us. he loves us. and yes at times we are full of vengance and want revenge on those who hurt us. but if god forgives us for all the harm human beings have done and hurt theyve caused then why cant we take that as a lesson learned and do the same? I love you maybe not as much as god does but i think its pretty close. its a wonderful feeling or emotion at times and then other times its painful. but hes given us that sence of emotion and we have to take advantage of it. Once theres love in your heart nothing seems the same… love this blog!
Tootsie 8:52 pm on November 7, 2010 Permalink |
I am glad you love it!!! Thanks for the comments.
blog designer 3:55 pm on February 7, 2011 Permalink |
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